To My Son's

   You talk to them every single day
Do they really ever listen to what you have to say?
You speak to them but do they hear
Do they realize you live in fear?

Fear that they will make a wrong turn
Do something wrong or truly get burned
We talk and where does it go
Will it sink in is what I want to know

They look at us, as we know nothing at all
When we speak its like we are talking to the wall
They seem to know everything at a young age
Wait till it's their turn to live on our page

The page of the book we called life
Full of love, hatred, worry and strife
So many chapters we must go through
So many mistakes that we seem to do

All we want is for them to understand
To know and realize what it is to be a man
To know that life if full of ups and downs
Its full of laughter, tears and frowns

We are trying to help them along the way
But it seems that they don’t care what we say
They will do just what they please
And say anything to put our mind at ease

But what they don’t see is the pain we bare
When we realize that they really don’t care
When we learned that they didn’t listen at all
When we reach for the phone and get that call

The one that makes your heart skip a beat
The one when your body temperature rises in heat
You're shaking and afraid to hear who's on the line
And thank God when you hear "Mom I am fine"

But something is wrong I made a mistake
I heard what you said but the words didn't take
They simply went in one ear and out the other
And NOW I know what you were saying my Mother

You talk to them, calm down their fears
Give them your love try to wipe away their tears
You need to know that they are all right
When deep inside you want to fight

You hold in your anger, try not to let them see
As you talk to them as calmly as you can be
And then you slowly hang up the phone
You start to ramble, walk and roam

First you thank God that they are alive
And then you feel nothing but numbness inside
Then you feel the tears start to roll down your face
Take a deep sigh, and start to pace

You scream you yell and no one is there
No one is listening seeing how much you care
They don’t see the pain you feel deep within
All you want to be is right there with him

You want to hold on tight and never let go
You want to shake them so hard for them to know
To really see how hurt you are, see the tears you shed
For they never listen to a word you said

Do you not realize the love I have for you
Do you not know that all I say and do
Is only because I love you my son
Please realize that my talking is never done

For as long as I have a breathe in me
I will be there watching you as you can see
God gave me to you, my baby my son
And the work of a mother is never done.

Written to you both, with all the love I have,
I only hope and pray that someday you fully realize
 just what you both mean to me.

May 30, 2004